Outlook

• Tends to be pessimistic regarding herself, as she depends on strong figures around her to keep her from failing. She has very low self esteem, and expects others to dislike her before they've even met. She can be jealous and bitter in certain situations, such as when she feels she is being abandoned or ignored by someone she cares about.
• Introverted, often to an extreme degree. Sometimes this comes across as shyness, other times it is a grumpy unwillingness to socialize, as she would prefer to be alone.^[6] She is often defensive, trying to hide her insecurities.
• Submissive definitely describes Colibri, although this can frustrate her as she was once one of Vinátta's leaders. She expects no one to take her seriously if she asserts herself, but open disrespect or insults can rankle her into anger, and she will lash out (usually in a passive aggressive manner).
• Coli is ruled by anxiety disorders^[7], including a moderate androphobia (fear of men)^[8]. She has a classic dependent personality ^[9] and codependency issues ^[10], that factor into her recurring depression^[11]. She is also a repeat victim of sexual assault^[12], with a subsequent dislike of physical contact unless she trusts and respects the one attempting to touch her.

Behavior

• Traits: Insecure, submissive, low esteem, self-conscious, defensive, stubborn
• Fears: Men, violence, rejection, confrontation, pain (physical and emotional), horses, her father, everything
• Motivations: Seeking acceptance, family ties, children and motherhood, trying to overcome her weaknesses, avoiding her fears
• Song: "Throw Me Away (acoustic)", KoЯn
• Alignment: Lawful Neutral
  • "...will never kill for pleasure, only in self-defense or in the defense of others. A lawful neutral character may use poison."
  • "Values lifelong commitment to a romantic partner."
  • "Considers public service in a leadership role an honor."
  • "Has few close friends and would never betray those s/he has."

General

• Scent:
  • Vinátta scent: pine needles, wood shavings, sea salt, Jordheim, white walnut.
  • Personal: floral (esp. honeysuckle & lily), fresh soil, Soul family (esp. her daughters).
  • Mate scent: moss, tomcat, Stormbringer family
• Speech:
  • Has a nervous stutter. Speaks slowly and deliberately to override it.
  • Often uses "filler" words such as "um, er, well", etc.
  • Has no discernible accent. Soft spoken, feminine voice.
• Quirks, Gestures, Etc.:
  • Shies away from most physical contact. Jumps when startled by it, such as being tapped on the shoulder.
  • When intimidated, displays many nervous tics such as fiddling with her hair, blinking rapidly, avoiding eye contact.
• General Posture and Body Language:
  • Guarded and submissive during a first encounter. Blusters if she feels threatened.
  • Much warmer toward puppies and females in general -- smiles more, stutters less, makes eye contact.

Assumptions

Anything beyond the okayed assumptions, PM and ask first. Vinátta members may assume the following:

• Seeing Colibri working at the communal garden.
• Seeing her in Jordheim with Niernan Stormbringer and/or their children.
• Seeing Colibri conversing with Florina Soul about leadership duties.

Biases

• Species: Coli is most comfortable with pure wolves, as that is what she grew up with. Some coyotes make her nervous, because she stereotypes based on Inferni and the Second Dahlian War. Dogs are a bit of a mystery, though her daughters are half-dog and she worries there could be prejudice against their appearance.
• Non-Luperci: Hasn't really met any other than the Koios family, and would probably assume they just preferred their Lupus form, not that they were unable to shift. If they mention it, she would immediately assume her Lupus form, for fear of making them feel uncomfortable around her.
• Gender: Coli is afraid of males in general, especially those who are large, physically powerful, or have a dominant scent. As such, she drifts toward females and trusts them more readily, admiring those with independence and the courage to stand out in what she sees as a man's world.
• Color: Doesn't really have color bias, although white wolves with blue eyes may remind her of Cercelee and make her feel guilty.
• Sexuality: She believes in monogamy, though gender is irrelevant. She wants to believe in true love and happy endings, though she is simultaneously jealous of happy couples, as she wants to find her own life partner. Being a single parent makes her feel inadequate, she would rather do it with a partner and assumes everyone else feels this way too. She is uncomfortable around flirts or anyone who speaks openly about sexuality.
• Age: Coli loves pups for their innocence, and wants them to be children forever. She can be jealous of young adults (esp. females) that still have their looks and found love because of it. She doesn't particularly care about the elderly unless she has a personal relationship with them.

Interests

Gardening is her outlet for her mental instability, it calms her. She used to collect plant-based poisons, but harbored guilt over having used them on others and eventually stopped. She adores children for their innocence, and mothers them all, fancying herself as a "nanny" or a "pup-sitter" (although in actuality she lacks the conviction to discipline them, and just spoils them silly).

• growing plants, esp. flowers
• herbal cures and holistic remedies
• identifying poisons
• making tea
• being unnoticed
• calming small children

Sexuality

• Kinsey 4: "Predominantly homosexual, but more than incidentally heterosexual"

Colibri identifies as pansexual (genderblind when it comes to attraction).^[13] However, as her negative experiences with men piled up, her preference for females became more obvious. She may have a genuinely low libido, but is more likely demisexual^[14], meaning she does not experience desire without first establishing an emotional bond. She generally does not initiate encounters unless intoxicated, and prefers her partner to take charge. Colibri believed for many seasons she could be infertile, due to her irregular and weak heat cycle. This was dispelled when she became pregnant with her daughters, of course, but since the childbirth was difficult, she no longer hopes to have more children. She is happy to be monogamous with her life partner Nier.

Substances

Colibri has never tried drugs, and barely touched alcohol. The few times she tried drinking, she had a very low tolerance and got tipsy almost immediately. It makes her very talkative, removing her inhibitions about sharing personal matters. (Wine in particular can make Coli... erm, in the mood.) Afterward she was embarrassed, and tends to avoid drinking or other substances she knows will lower her inhibitions in that way.

Spirituality

Coli follows the Norse beliefs of the Stormbringer family. She tends to be a bit shy about sharing this aloud, as her conversion was a deeply personal matter. See below.

History of Beliefs

Colibri's earliest memories are of the monotheistic religious pack she was born into. For the first two months of her life, she was lectured on good and evil, Heaven and Hell, angels and demons. This largely bored her as a child, and she quickly forgot about it once she came to live with Haku and Cercelee. However, once she survived the traumatic assault and abandonment her father put her through, she needed something to believe in. The old values they had tried to drill into her resurfaced, and she began to follow the watered-down version she remembered from her early childhood.

This was not a positive influence on her, because the main point they had tried to impress upon her was that she was born into sin. The circumstances of her birth were scandalous, and both her parents had been wicked to conceive her out of mateship, dooming her to a life of wickedness as well. This led to an overwhelming sense of inadequacy and guilt, because Coli wants to redeem herself but does not know how. She tries to commit only good deeds, but bad things still happen to her. She clings to those she sees as bastions of purity such as Anu, with the hope that their presence might cleanse her of the darkness she harbors, but instead she ends up hurting those around her.

When she leaves Nova Scotia for her journey, she is in a dark state of mind, accepting that she must be corrupted beyond repair and she would only continue to sink further. Shunning contact with others for close to two years gradually eroded her hopes of becoming a good person and saving her soul. When she returned, she is aimless; there was no point in apologizing to those she hurt, because they were better off not seeing her again, and there was no point in living by a moral code if she was doomed to fail. Her existence is meaningless without something to believe in.

It is in this state of moral twilight that she is lead to join Vinátta, a pack accepting of all religions but offering Norse pagan beliefs of the Solbjorg Valley to those who would accept them. For the most part, Coli is not interested in converting because she fears it is too late to change herself, but she wears the pendant of Thor's Hammer wherever she goes because she is proud to have a home that does not reject her. Mere weeks after joining, she is unfortunately attacked outside the borders of this home. It was a brutal beating that leaves her shaken and vulnerable, with the assailant having carved his initial into her flesh. After this event, she begins to embrace the Norse culture, even going so far as to ask their spiritual leader Miskunn Stormbringer to alter her scar into the shape of a rune that would bless her with better luck. She finds herself pregnant after the assault, and decides to raise her children with the Norse religion to keep them on the path of good.

4.1  Key Relations

• Niernan — Coli's mate. Nier is the one male she could trust with romantic feelings, and after more than a year of being close friends, they finally admitted to their attraction and became mates. She loves his kindness and patience, and his safe presence draws out a playful side to her. Nier's knowledge of animal husbandry helps her with matters she is ignorant to, though she gently teases him for adopting stray pets and being "a softie".
• Saul — Coli's dear friend, whom she considers family. Saul is a brotherly influence as well as co-founder of Vinátta. They garden together and share responsibilities, and she has opened up to him as one of the few males she can trust. His honesty sometimes forces him to share bad news with Coli, but she respects him for this. He is the one who delivered her daughters, and he has saved her life on multiple occasions.
• Lilin — Coli's sister. They first met after her return from her western journey. Lilin is independent, fierce, confident, very much a role model to Coli, and she joins Vinátta to spend more time by her side. They grew close during their simultaneous pregnancies during the summer of 2012, and were co-leaders and good friends until Lilin's abrupt departure. When Lilin returned months later, Coli immediately forgave her and returned to idolizing her.
• Anu — Coli's ex. Anu used to be a friend, a lover, a hero, the entire world to Colibri. Coli left her pack to move in with Anu years ago as her first love, but when things got rocky, Coli abandoned Anu rather than try to repair their relationship. That remains her greatest regret. They meet again years later as packmates in Vinátta, and it is a lingering source of heartache for Coli who cannot find closure for her feelings of hero worship.

4.2  Family: Soul, Sadira, Nasphrite

• Mother: Milla Jolie
• Father: Haku Soul
• Littermates: N/A
• Foster Sibling/Cousin: Cercelee
• Half-Siblings: Willow Soul, Claudius Aston, Attila Aston, Noir Aston, Ocèane Aston, Emwe Soul, Conor Soul, King Chance, Melee Soul, Range Soul, Lilin Soulstorm.
• Mate: Niernan Stormbringer
• Offspring: Fiora vin Haki, Farina vin Haki, Florina Soul, Fionna vin Haki, Ninian Stormbringer, Russano Stormbringer
• Extended: Coli views all of Haku's children as her siblings, even though she has not met many of them. Lilin is her favorite sister, and Conor was her favorite brother until his death. Taliesin was considered her foster brother when she came to live with Willow and Deuce in Dahlia de Mai. She wants the acceptance of anyone carrying the Sadira & Soul names, since she was given what she considered a "fake" name, "Haki" being made up by Haku. Later in life, she gives the Haki name to three of her daughters in an attempt to start their own little family tree.

Relations

• Bel Tlu'gv and Orvar Stormbringer — Coli was wet-nurse to these puppies, and developed intense maternal feelings for them. It pains her that she cannot adopt them and be their true mother, even though she trusts Ascher as their father.
• Miskunn Stormbringer — Vinátta's spiritual leader who had a hand in Coli's conversion to the Norse religion, as well as giving her the rune scar on her chest. Coli finds her wise, but unnerving.
• Toby — The father of her children by force. She feared him deeply, but in a codependent manner also craved the sick attention he gave her. She does not learn about or comprehend his mental illness until much later, when she meets his true personality and her feelings turn to pity.
• Ezra Rosen — A fellow founding member of Vinátta, Ezra and his son Elias were welcome presences. His tale of love lost echoes Coli's own, so she can relate to his loss. He left the pack voluntarily, though, which leaves a sour taste in her mouth.
• Deuce Rhiannon — Deuce looked after Coli when they lived in Dahlia de Mai, using her relationship with Haku to keep his influence away from her. Coli lived there with her strong-willed little half-sister Willow, and Deuce's quiet son Taliesin. The female-centric family helped her regain her confidence in the world during a dark time. Coli learned herbal remedies from the healer until the woman left her for her real family. Deuce was a mother figure to her, so it was painful to lose her presence. Years later Coli and Deuce are reunited, and Coli cautiously forgives her.

Family Relations

• Fiora vin Haki — Coli's first daughter, and her rather obvious favorite. Fiora's shyness echoes Colibri's own, and they spend much of their time together. They share interests in gardening and healing. Coli gave Fiora her first house.
• Farina vin Haki — Coli's second daughter, and the one she knows the least about. Their relationship is awkward at best, since Farina's appearance is a reminder that she is a child of rape as well as Haku's granddaughter.
• Florina Soul — Coli's third daughter, the one who challenges her as she struggles to raise her with good morals. Florina is headstrong and independent, and Coli feels like she never listens or cares. Since Florina attacked her and ran away from home, Coli worries for her.
• Fionna vin Haki, Ninian Stormbringer, Russano Stormbringer — Too young to establish a relationship outside of infancy, but Coli loves her babies.
• Eclipse Soulstorm — Her niece, Conor's daughter. She wants to look out for her young relative, and tries to offer her advice. At the same time, Eclipse is much stronger and more self-reliant than she could ever be, and serves as an inspiration.
• Firefly Sadira — Her "stepmother" of sorts, Coli started off on the wrong foot with this woman and never had the chance to redeem herself. She resents Firefly for being her father's mate, even though she says she no longer loves him herself. She is pleased when Firefly is eventually exiled from Dahlia de Mai, and has not seen her since.
• Cercelee — Cer is her cousin but was always like a sister to her. Since their childhood separation, Coli was afraid to find out how much distance was between them. She avoided her former best friend in DdM, until Cer and her mate left the pack for good. She regrets this, and wonders whether Cer ever got her happily ever after.

Minor Relations

• Friendly: Shiloh, Ascher, Lochlan, Carya, Cass, Emma, Alder, Princess, Haven, Ehno, Zana
• Unfriendly: Tayui, Grace, Tokyo, Firefly, Chishio, Toby, Itachi, Siv
• Sex: Haku, Anu, Toby, Niernan
• Fights: (won) None atm.
• Fights: (lost) Haku, Lyserg, Siv, Toby, Florina
• Murders: Leland, unnamed coyote x3

Former Relations